As we walked on the roads we barely knew, we crossed upon a jewelry store. They had beautiful displays of sets of necklaces. I had my eyes glued to them, with my hands on the cold frosted glass window. He was two steps in front of me when he realized I made a stop, which he then gazed directly in my direction. Walking back towards me, he asked "found something you're fond of ?". I giggled and replied, "you know me, I fall in love with cute things easily".

He gave me a warm smile, putting his scarf around my hands, "you should really wear your gloves, what's the point of having them if you don't use them ?", he said with an irritated expression on his face. I didn't want to upset him even more but I reacted instantly saying "geez, it's not a big deal, you were smiling a while ago. You're not exactly wearing gloves yourself".

With the awkward atmosphere around us, he grabbed my waist and pulled me close, he placed his icy cold hand on my head, running his fingers through my hair, & gave me a light kiss on my forehead. "I'm sorry, I don't want you to turn into ice" he said with a grin. It can't be helped, he was too cute, my cheeks started to heat up and the next thing I know, they were flushing red. Completely embarrassed, I looked away into the necklace I had set my heart to.

"You know what's funny, I don't even wear necklaces but I want this one so bad", I pointed at the long, white gold, thin chained necklace with a small coin shaped pendant. It has no designs or stones on it, yet it was so elegant in a way I couldn't explain. He nodded in agreement of my statement I think and he quickly took a glimpse of his watch, "we should make a move, we don't wanna be late for our reservation dinner do we ?". I guess he was right, he did made a reservation at a very exclusive restaurant for our date that night. Even though I hated to rush, it was my fault that I didn't let him stop by the gas station and his car ran out of fuel.

After a few minutes of what i call a not-much-of-a-run, we actually made it to this huge building supposedly belong to the owner of the restaurant. At the entrance, a guy with a well dressed suit came up to us and offered to guide us to our table. I didn't say a word, I was overwhelmed with the amazing aura of that particular restaurant. I did put on a big smile though. We passed through a bunch of wealthy looking customers having dinner and we were directed to an opened glass elevator. Without any hesitation, he went in, pulling me, hand in hand.

We stopped at highest floor which was the rooftop of the building. The moment I saw the whole arrangement of the rooftop, my eyes just sparkled like diamonds. It has the most fascinating garden I have ever seen in my life. With beautiful greens and colourful flowers surrounding a table occupied with lighted candles. It was ridiculous. I was beyond speechless, but he on the other hand, wore the most incredible smile, even in his eyes.

I felt like I was being treated similar to a princess, the food was magnificent, the weather was just nice for us, he really made me feel like I'm all his and he can do whatever he wants with me cause he is flawlessly topnotch. We talked a little and laughed a lot when he then suddenly took my hands and kissed them. He took out a small vintage musical box and said "it's for you, I think you would very much like it".

I slowly reached for the music box and opened it. To my shock, it has a nice melody that gave me chills, a little and more importantly, a necklace was inside. It was the necklace I said I wanted earlier. It was not possible, I thought. How can he have bought something I would love and I just happen to see it before he hands it to me ? With all those thoughts, I picked up the pendent and noticed it has been engraved. The front of the coin has an engraved illusion of a flower, like a sakura flower. And on its back, it has both mine & his name on it. I cried.

He came over to my side and gave me a firm hug. I stood up to give him a kiss which I had to tip toe to do so. Then, he mischievously laughed and said "I will always be here to protect you, you're my little flower, my strength and my weakness".

He gave me my first ever necklace, he is now my loving husband.

xx

I don't know where to go from here.

Everyone wants to be successful, to have their dreams coming true, getting the extraordinary, & if possible, live as a legend. Nobody wants their life to be tough. But everyone knows the fact that the worries will never stop, each of us has a battle to survive. It's what they say it is, life is a roller coaster ride.

I know I complain a lot, it's not that I don't get it, not that I don't appreciate being able to breathe, I just wanna show my frustration sometimes rather than keeping it all in a closed tight jar. I admit, I don't think much of the upcoming days, I figured it would be better if I try my best today & hope that I would do better tomorrow. And maybe, just maybe, I would live long enough to see myself picking up the pieces from the ground & actually be on top of the skies.

If you ask me, why I can't choose something, honestly, it's because I want them all & I would like to challenge myself and see if I could get them instead of settling for one. I know I'm stubborn but please, let me be.

xx

Hey there beautiful people !

These last few days, I have been tweeting strictly on studying, and I am gonna explain why. Seriously, I'm just so excited that I could literally break this keyboard with my fingers. So here's the thing, it might not be a big deal to any of you, but I got the invitation to join UTP's Educamp !! ( I can't even put down the smileys cause it will be endless ). Anyways, I came to know that there will be two types of interviews, individually & in a group, and there's a few written tests. You see, that's exactly the reason why I'm studying. It is such an amazing opportunity that I want to give it my best. I may or may not get a spot into that particular university, but I am so not planning on giving up, especially on a good university.

It's one hell of a good news for me but I'm guessing I should probably dye my hair again. My hair right now is in candy pink. & honestly, the colour is really really bright, in a reddish pink kind of way, but still, I should tone it down right ?

I don't have anymore stories to share, as of right now, this should be a quick update. A little luck would be nice from this point onward.

Sayonara ! :3

Konnichiwa !

So I guess I should update a little about what's been happening. Sincerely, it's nothing to fuss over. I mentioned about uitm and utp didn't I ? Well, as it turns out, I was rejected....AGAIN. Then, I applied into utp, the result for the interview thingy will be out this upcoming november. You just have no idea how torturing it is for me to wait & worse, what if I won't be accepted again ? I thought since my hopes and dreams are a little too dramatic and over the top, I should at least be able to overcome the hurdle of studying and get a better stand. My so called beautiful & carefree months has been nothing but a lot of sighs.

Okay enough. 

I have all the time in the world. Not really. But I still manage to do whatever I want aside from helping out with the house work. I guess this is me being positive ? Anyways, I've been watching that Korean variety show called Runningman like seriously a lot and instantly fell in love with, how do you label them ? Monday couple ? I started listening to Gary's group called Leessang and I gotta say, I love their songs. There's absolutely something beautiful about how he raps and how their songs overflows into my heart. It is somewhat relaxing. Speaking of which, I was so into bands like Bullet for my Valentine and The Used and many more, but I haven't kept myself updated with their albums. So I figured, though I'm not a die hard fan of metal or rock bands, I should at least keep myself occupied with their great songs right ? But what I did was playing their old albums over & over again, everyday, every time. So much of finding new albums -.-

I kinda started to watch Japanese dramas and anime as well. Been reading tons of manga too. Yes yes, this is what you call the ultimate dark hole of lifeless. No doubt that I fell in love with anything that has to do with Japanese either. I mean, I've forgotten the fact that I used to love how the Japanese portray their guys. The style, the personalities, everything is what I've been into for such a long time. Even the ladies I adore since I was a child. I even took up the chance to learn the Japanese language, it doesn't look that tough but it is hard since I don't have anyone to practice with & I keep on forgetting. But whatever, one day I will be able to speak fluently in Japanese ! 

It's actually exciting you know ? Even though I rarely go out & stuff, but I haven't been this pumped up for so long, constantly searching for something new to experience. I tend to keep myself occupied from now on by doing whatever I can. Will you guys support me ? Haha

I'm running out of words now. Looking back, I don't think I have ever typed long essays like this before :3 Jaa, bye now !

xx

Hola amigos :)

So, I've decided to update my blog tonight cause I had a sudden urge to type all these things in my head that are tangled real good. To start off, I have been doing nothing since I got back. I did plan to work for at least I could own some cash & all but not having a transport appears to be such a big deal. Eventually I don't even care to look for any other reasons to get a job anymore. I'm unemployed and I'm just sitting around getting fats to build up in my thighs & cheeks.

Other than that, life's good.

Hah, I wish.

I was not accepted for my degree application in uitm. Got extremely annoyed that I hated the thought of appealing. But I did anyway. As much as i detest to go back there, it's actually a good university and most importantly, it's affordable for me. In any case I get rejected again, I'm soooooo applying for a degree in utp ! Well, I hope whatever's in store for me is what I can handle. Dead worried if I'm able to finish up my degree and then masters soon enough.

Now am I allowed to be a little cheesy ? 
I miss having my boyfriend around ! I can't say I'm not happy that he's studying his heart out, I'm just a little lonely that he's far away and when he's not, I only get to see him like what ? Twice ? And then he's back in Sarawak. Can't do anything about it, I know that, I just wish it doesn't have to be this way.

Turns out I don't really have that much of tangled problems to deal with, I just love to exaggerate. Bye now beautiful people !

xx 

What's up creatures ?

What I've been dying to scream out from my chest is that I'm done ! Oh yes I'm done ! With diploma of course. It's like a dream comes true. No more studying for at least a few more months ;)

Also, being awaaay from everything makes me feel lost a little, changed even. I never really imagine what it feels like to be different than what i used to be. Although the difference is merely a huge one, it made me want to forget, forget that right now I'm pushing everything that is remotely possible to feel hurt. But that's not me, I should be the one taking it all in, turning it into something worth smiling, for me at least.

Well, I can't really type out my emotions right now as they're pretty much scattered around here & there. What's obvious is now that I'm back in town, I'm definitely staying !

To all the wonderful dreamers out there, have you guys ever made wrong decisions, cried your bones out, shattered your heart into pieces, gave up thousands times in tons of opportunities, believed in the unbelievable, & yet never lose hope ? Well, keep it up. Because someone, somewhere, cares for you more than enough to be with you through thick and thin. You gotta wait it out. If you're lucky, you'll realize it sooner than you think. Keep that person or persons in your life #notetoself

Ciao xx